Busy week,
revised:
Math -- Poisson, Normal
Chinese Lit-- One short story
MicroEcons -- Theory of the firm
Eng Lit -- THT and 1984 (In progress)
..outstanding work: One Chinese short story.
I'd even managed to squeeze in mummy's birthday dinner yesterday! :) Happy Birthday Mummy! I really thank God for you. You are the strongest woman I know, overcoming your operation and diabetes the way you did.. Mann.. I need look no further for inspiration daily! I'm sorry for all the times I was unreasonable, all the times I've let you down, all the times we've argued over my future.. I don't know how you do it, forgiving me like you always do :) Here's to many more years of love and health!

..So, yep busy week, it's basically train, bathe, eat, study (no more naps on weekdays!), light evening training on some days, trudge home, bathe, eat, study, sleep EVERYDAY! But we'll pull through on the strength and endurance and wisdom that He blesses us with, and we'll crush some dreams. ;) I like that.

Anyhoo,
For a moment as I rowed today, I imagined myself above the water, above it all, riding on His shoulders. It was.. uplifting :) Thank You.

I will not be afraid
I will not be dismayed
I am not alone
Your rod and staff they comfort me

Of course it's to be expected. Everyone wants the gold, so at this point, it doesn't really matter if you want it anymore than anyone else. Everyone's putting in that extra bit of effort for the last burst. We are all equal as of now. So.. What will take us the extra mile?

Faith. I will not forget how it's like to row purely for You. To have no fear. And in the days to come that will be something I'll have to draw on constantly. Nobody said it'll be easy. I've given my heart and soul for the past 2 years --even my mum acknowledges this and is finally showing me her support, I WILL NOT let any lapses of faith screw up this last leg. Because I am a coward at heart. I am afraid, terribly afraid. I know I can't face up to that feeling of regret that is sure to come if I don't go all out.

I cannot be defeated
I cannot be destroyed
I am not alone.

I'm really grateful for how caring Jiaolian can be sometimes. He told me he only expects my 80% today because I'm still coughing (but of course I forget that from time to time). Come monday, it's Goodbye, halcyon days :)

And this is a promise, Yang, 110 on all fronts. I'd expect nothing less. At the same time, be very alert, be ready to catch yourself out if you feel yourself sinking. Remember what it's like to ride on His shoulders.

Godspeed.

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go to, then; your considerate stone.
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